Dance is the deepest meditation possible. OSHO

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When I think back to my first bachelorette party, there were about 5 of us and we went to bed after two glasses of wine at 12. In other words, until I was 27 or so, I was a truly magnanimous creature. I simply didn’t know how to have fun. My best friends Tina and Michal used to make fun of me all the time because I would tell them “I’m over it!”

I didn’t know what would come after my divorce from my first marriage. In another story for the painting “A certain darkness is needed to see the stars” I shared my story of cocaine addiction and experimenting with other substances. I also told you about all that this experience has taken from me in my life.

Now I’d like to look at it from a slightly different perspective. I heard from one woman that experimenting with different substances takes us to a level of frequency of that substance that we wouldn’t normally get to. Those frequencies can be teachers for us. Warning. But only until they begin to control us. Then it’s quite a problem.

At these different frequencies, my body and mind got closer to my essence of being. It opened up and rediscovered my natural wilderness and playfulness, which for some reason I had suppressed inside for decades. My verbal and non-verbal expressions became more authentic and relaxed. My body was suddenly able to undulate and sink into movements that I had not been able to imagine or allow before.

After getting rid of all the addictions, thank God, all that was left was the memory and experience of the frequency, which led me to the truthfulness of the manifestation. It taught me, for example, how to enjoy ecstatic dancing while sober and to be guided by my inner dancer, as Peter from @orlickyeecstatic says. I now see dancing as one of the most blissful activities of life ever.